Saying
the words ‘Be Well’ to you seemed so sad… so tears welled up.
I couldn’t
help, but let it go… all the way down to my chin.
I wished
you to be well, truth is I wish it would be with me.
But that
would be selfish of me.
I already
know. I already know.
Isn’t that
why I let you go ?
I didn’t
want you to sacrifice things for me, be hurt for me, or even pitying me…
I tried
to be strong through all of it…
But I was
wrong… I was wrong…
I’m
sorry.
I didn’t
know it would hurt this bad. I tried to be strong.
But I crumbled,
cried, crashed… and burned…
0o0o0o0o0o
Tears…
fell, streamed, never ending…
…1
drop 2 drops 3 drops 4 drops 5 drops…
I wonder
if what the sky was feeling as I cried.
.It responded
to me quickly.
…1
drop 2 drops 3 drops 4 drops 5 drops…
It rained
heavily, letting no piece of earth laid dry of suffocation.
It watered
the hurt pieces with that strong, soothing wind.
Like the
memories of you,
It blew
past me happily, leaving me the feeling of content…
But never
turning back.
0o0o0o0o0o0
I hated
myself.
I hated
the fact that while I tried to win you over,
I annoyed
you, I took your time, I made you choose, I sent sadness to your heart.
I hated
it.
It made
my heart hurt as it made yours.
I never
wanted to interfere.
I vowed
to myself it was never going to be same like what I did in the past.
…but I
was wrong…
.again.
Maybe that
was why you never turned back…
Why you
never glanced at my way for even a second…
I never
blamed you. I’m still not blaming you.
I don’t
know if it’s because
I’m
too much for anyone to handle...
Or I’m
not enough for anyone’s standard…
because
No
matter how much I tell you I love you,
It wouldn’t
work.
0o0o0o0o0o0
I was
wrong.
Maybe it
really is the best for the both of us if
I just
say ‘Be well’…
Turn around,
and walk away…
But I don’t
want to guess anything.
The words
‘maybe’ is just too much for me, too much for me to say…
It gives
me hope of something different than what’s already happening.
And when
hopes dawn in my heart,
I know
the wishing star would rain on me in an instance.
I’m
too scared to wish for anything…
Because
the last time I wished for something…
It
passed by me and disappeared, like the wind...
And do
you know what I wished for ?
I wished
for a Big, Warm, Unending Love…
I got
you, instead.
So it turned
out,
My wish
did come true… didn’t it ?
Be Well, B.
