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   “Things are much more CLOSER than they APPEAR”

Everybody has something they want to reach out to. 

It’s either because they want to keep it, or they want to use it.

To some people, the further the object is, 

the bigger their interests to reach out to it.

But to others… that may seem impossible…

Because they’re always too afraid to even try… 

Those people… all they ever need is some guidance, encouragement and a bit of trust…

Trust from the people they keep close to their hearts… trust from them that says they can do it… 

That says they will succeed…

And the trust where, when whatever it was they were reaching was lost, they have someone to lean on… to hold on to… saying it’ll be okay, it’ll be all fine… 

Unless we’ve felt that insecure feeling, we can never judge them…

Truly, we can never judge anything. 

Nothing at all. 

Everyone and everything has their right on this earth we walk all on together…

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She knew, whatever it is that she’s reaching for, would always slip right from her fingers… It wasn’t fair, she thought…

For people like her, TRYING is a really powerful word, especially from their cocooned world wrapped tightly around them… 

Because she knew, even if she tried, the results are always different, from time to time…

She was scared…

But,

She never intended to try…

She never wanted to try…

She never thought of trying…

Never… up until now…

       

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            She never liked people banging on the door or calling her name… maybe it was because she’s never felt what it was like being called as if she meant anything to anyone…

            

But he bangs on her heart’s door, frequently… demanding for it to open for him… 

He left her no choice but to open it for him.

Still, it’s not like she could put all the blame on him… She was wrong too. She thought all he could ever give her was trouble…

Instead, he led her to a path, a path to a more friendly world… He held her hand, guided her there and showed her the best out of life…

She was shocked… 

She would always be shocked when he was with him… 

Because he brought the best thing that ever happened to him first to her… so she could enjoy it too… 

He was like a gem, a precious gem that she couldn’t let go of…

            

Again, she knew she was wrong… for ever falling into a person like him, because she knew he was a gem… 

but she also knew he was someone else’s gem…

And she knew it was wrong to steal…

            

Guilty as she felt, she still held on to his words… the words that always kept her going everyday… like the wind keeping a boat to sail on its right path…

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             Ever so slowly, day by day, she started to change… 

she changed by the colour of his presence. 

She still looked at the world from the same perspective, only now, she saw it with a different eye, from a different angle…

He was changing her… with his frequent banging… his tugging on her hand… his shouts of her name… and his gazes on her soul…

            

        She tried avoiding them… but it was stupendously impossible…

Every step she took further, he took a step closer…

Every word she says harsher, he says it softer…

Every lid she covers her feelings, he opened one door for her…

But it was also different every time she tried something else.

Every step she took closer, he took a step further…

Every word she says softer, he says it harsher…

Every lid of her feelings she lifts, he closed one door for her…

She hated him for that…

He was encouraging her to come closer and closer…      

But at the same time, he goes further and further…

She asked him why… she asks him every now and then, but he never answered…

Instead, he showed her his point of view…

            

          It was like a mirror… her mirror… she saw what he saw… and it was painful…

But it was no less different that hers… he was looking at someone else… she 

knew he tried, and she knew he failed, she felt his hurt, she saw her eyes… he wasn’t in her view…

It was all the same.

Life could never be the same for everyone… but the way it turns out, is the exact same for everyone. Everyone feels things, everyone sees things, everyone knows things…

That’s what he was trying to tell her…

THEY were the same…

Both the things they were trying to reach, would go further if they step closer…

And it would come closer, if they take a step further…

               Instantly, she knew what it meant… what it all meant…

Things may not work out that time, but maybe it was because it shouldn’t be that way…

Things may turn out better… but later, she thought…

The ending might be sad, but the journey, it was filled with laughter and happiness… she was sure it will never be forgotten…

                But for now, she was happy…

After all, she didn’t have any regrets… because instead of nothing, she got experiences, blissful memories, and a friend she knew she could cherish…

                                               

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Dear you, I hope you will cherish those moments always… I’ll see you soon…