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It’s really unhealthy how much i think about u…

because thinking of u made me hurt…

it hurt so bad that my chest tightens, my stomach clenches, my head spinning…

and my heart, cringing with fear…

fear that maybe this feeling would destroy me, or u, or the memory of us.

u noticed me, u coloured me, u changed me…

u were a part of me.

that’s just it, a part of me… it seeped into my very soul,

making me realize that we already threw our friendship on memory lane.

all those times……

the times between our stupid little jokes,

each and every moment u smiled,

all the times u made me worry…

all those has faded.. 

i wanted to hate u but i couldn’t.

i just couldn’t.

my memories of u won’t let me.

so i held on… i kept on hurting myself..

[ it’s hard CARING for other’s HEART while making sure ur’s don’t BREAK ]

until one day i realized…

…the hurt…

…the pain…

…and all the tears in between…

all of it made me remember,

why i wanted u so much in the first place.

[ THE GREATER THE VALUE OF A FRIEND,

     THE GREATER THE RISK OF BEFRIENDING THEM ]

I saw myself…

in U…

we were the same.

we knew what it’s like to be rejected…

we get pressurized when people hope too much of us…

we do naughty stuffs yet we pitied the bullied ones…

we make jokes of stupid things…

we cared for others like we do of ourselves…

we… we…

we… were, friends… weren’t we ?

that’s us…

remember ?

my own question gripped on my heart..

that’s when i knew, when i felt..

that i never regretted meeting u…

from that day onwards, i vowed… that,

i will keep our memoirs safely in my garden of memories…

i will hold on to the thought that we’ll meet again someday…

i will be strong through life, just like u taught me…

and i will cherish the great moments we’ve been through… 

even if u won’t do the same…